these are the days 


Many moons ago I was a 19 year old nursing student in New Jersey.

My grandmother worked for the visiting nurse association for decades and I felt drawn to it as a job while studying.

One of the things I specialized in was Hospice Care.

Many of my peers would say,

Wow that’s depressing !

How do you do that every day ?

What happens when they take their last breath ?

Well they die.

I would wisely reply.

Back then I was not saved.

I thought I was a good person compared to the worldly standards around me.

I saw something that put my entire life in perspective.

When you are young

you are invincible.

I had a glimpse every single day of death.

Sometimes old men.

Sometimes middle aged women.

Come to think of it,

one time a child.


I believe that was Gods way of tugging at my heart.

Jackie life is not just what you can see. 

Before my patients would be unable to speak

I would ask this same question to them.

And it didn’t matter how old.

Or how young they were.

I needed an answer.

It was this.

What was the best time of your life ? 

A Simple enough question.

Guess what ?

My Mama warriors

Knee deep in spit up



The common answer from women and men alike was

Creating and raising my family with my spouse

Back then I was amazed.

You mean it wasn’t when

you only lived once ?

And did all those crazy things ?

It wasn’t when you traveled ?

Or got that amazing job?


The answer always was the same.

Now almost ten years later




Stretch marks


In between that young girl I knew,

And the wife and mother I am now.

But when I am having my bad days.

And I look over at the green grass on the other side

Of women dressed perfect

And makeup all done


Time to enjoy their husbands

And interests

Travel the world

I try to remember  back to those elderly patients I cared for.

I will never forget this one older gentleman.

We had so many great days just asking each other questions.

He was clearly a man of faith.

One day I asked him my  question and his response I could never forget.


It will be hard. 

You will struggle. 

But please, please remember 

Raising my family with my wife was the best time of our lives. 

My kids are grown and I regret the time I took for granted.

This man was put on  hospice care which meant he was inevitably going to die

But when he did pass he was surrounded by that family he talked about.



A son

It was so peaceful

I do not want to take one single moment God gives me for granted.

Yet I do daily. 

I complain.

I grumble.

Father please forgive me for this.





We are now in the best days of our lives. 

Hear that baby crying ?

That’s Gods grace in your life.

Your son is disobeying again ?

That’s Gods sanctification .

Tired ?

Keep this Scripture close to you

Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”— yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life?

For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.

James 4:13-14

We do not know how many years God will grant us on this earth

But if your heart is beating

You are blessed



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